Have you ever felt like something was holding you back? Like there was a chain tied to your leg and you couldn’t move?
That is how I felt this past year, and therefore I was struggling to keep my head above water.
I’ve decided to take the pressure off myself a little bit, so i do not lose my shit throughout 2019. I’ve always been the type of girl who planned her year ahead. Always asking myself, how can I be more, how can I do more? Why?
This year I learnt a lot about myself. One thing was understanding the enormous pressure I put upon myself with everything. The pressure to be “perfect”. And I began to buckle under it so much I stopped enjoying life. When you constantly focus on the things that you want to achieve, you lose sight of the things that you have already achieved.
At some point in my life I felt really unhappy, and I think it’s because I lost sight of myself, my happiness, and what success means to me.
So I’m starting this year with no real goals. No expectations, just letting it all happen as it should, take new chances every day, and not being focused so much on being the best and making the most money.
This year I’m concentrating on being happy and creating the woman I want to be. Happy, confident, stable and carefree. Maybe, that way, I’ll feel more proud of my achievements and successes, instead of seeing them as just another thing I have to do. I’ve got ideas of things I’d like to do, but by listing them as a goal makes it easier to fail.
If there is one goal I will set it’s to really work on myself. I put myself down so much, I need to stop thinking “I’m not good enough for that” and start thinking “is that good enough for me?”
This year I’ve decided to value myself!